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Moving On | Lisa Nikole | A Year Ago

Wednesday, February 24th, 2010

Wow, does time fly…

It’s been a little over a year since I moved to Missouri.

I came here crying so much that when my husband and I went to have utilities turned on or open up accounts I could not stop crying and I knew they thought he abducted me or something, no jokes, it was pretty bad!

I determined never to make a friend and felt I was losing every friend I ever had. I left my daughter and her family in Ohio and that,was something that devastated me for a while. But I had to go on and thank God for the internet and webcams… we made it through and in that separation both of us learned more lessons.

A dear friend asked me about my story, moving my business and making a success in just one year. She prompted this blog!

So the story is like this..I lived in Ohio most of my life, my husband got a transfer to Missouri and we decided as a family, this is the road we wanted to travel. My daughter still lived in Ohio so I knew my Ohio based business would be fine.

Starting over was not the adventure I wanted in life, but as I look back now, I am so glad for the move and the new friendships and the amazing people I have been exposed to.

Sometimes living in a small town you forget there is a great big world out here and there is so much to learn, if you just open the door and step outside, sure a move of this size is NOT for everyone, and I thought for sure I was that everyone, but turns out… I had a lot to learn, even in my own attitudes that I thought were so finite, I was exposed to things that made me take a second look at the condition of my heart!

The first thing we did was find a church, we knew that was the most important thing to our survival and it did not take long before a door was opened up and I now attend the most amazing church, filled with the most awesome people in the world! Here’s the link if you want to check them out: COTR

I started to get my paperwork together, it’s important that when you are starting up, or moving on, to make sure you do it right, don’t play around with things that will come back to get you later, so I found out exactly what I needed to do, local, city and state and started all over again.

Starting over gave us the chance to change our name from what it was Creations Photography (talk about a dated name) to Lisa Nikole. We never did like the name Creations but it’s where we started, we’re just happy where we ended!

Social Networking made all the difference in the world. IF, you are a business person and you shun social networking, you’re going to be lost shortly in a world that no longer exist. Some fear the internet, but I say bring it on. As much bad as you can say about it, I can say good with proof!

I started to connect with Saint Louis photographers and even hosted a first photographer get together, which by the way, we will be doing again, this year!

I attended one bridal show and spoke with many other people about business and visited local bridal shops, florists and the Chamber of Commerce.

The doors were opened up and jobs just started to come, at first it was pretty even with Ohio, but this year I can say Missouri has broken wide open for us and I’m loving meeting all the amazing couples that have contacted us to be their wedding photographer.

That’s the short story *smiles*… and here’s the dramatic ending….

As I write this blog, my daughter and her family are traveling across Ohio, Indiana and Illinois to make their home in Missouri.

Don’t worry Ohio, we’ve not forgotten you, we’ve never been one state photographers we shoot all over this amazing world. But for us to be together again means only one thing…

Look out Missouri!!!! :-)

Unsinkable Ships Sink…Unbreakable Walls Break

Monday, November 16th, 2009

I thought when the decision was made to move to Saint Louis, I would die! To me, it was the final end to a deep secret battle I was waging with myself on the inside!

With this move, I lost every friend I thought I had for the last 25 years.
So many things were said to me I started to list them, but that is not what I’m writing about.

The day I left, I walked out of the room alone, no one said goodbye. No one noticed it was my last day. My daughter and grandson walked with me to my car, I looked back and smiled. No one really knew how bad I was hurting. I put up a good front! It took a few months to get to a point of understanding!

You can’t blame people for expressing how they feel, what they think.

But it can rock your world and we really need to THINK before we speak!

but we also need to speak before we lose the chance to ever speak again!

Six years ago an event happened in my life that literally took my breath away I did what I did the best! I used my camera to shield me from emotion and dealing with the loss of someone so very special to me!

This post is very different from most that I write but it’s a tribute to a very special person that I’ve never been able to express the depth of his loss in my life!

I was honored and privileged to capture the last year of his life. His last walk to public speaking and his last celebration of his wife’s birthday! It was an honor!

Was he perfect? Far from it! Was he gifted, very! He gave me the most unconventional advice THAT WORKED!

His death destroyed a community, tore people apart and sent many people on a far off journey!

I’ve never seen nor experienced the things I did that first year after he died.

One night I woke up to write these words:
I’m not so convinced he screwed up as was said but, his death released a cord that he held onto that held everything and everyone close to him tightly together. When that cord was loosed all hell was unraveled.

I remember long LONG walks talking, examine every angle, every passage, every way. The what ifs. But in the end, none of that mattered. No matter what we prayed, how we tried, his death spurred a ripping and a tearing that may never be repairable. THAT is up to people and generally people are far better at fueling a fire then quenching it!

So, I live in Saint Louis now! Is life perfect? No! But, a whole new world has opened up to me.

My husband found a church and it’s an amazing place of healing and learning! It’s a place of growing and I’m surrounded by people more amazing then I’ve ever known. I said I’d never make new friends, but I have. :-)

I’ve since returned home and had a chance to talk to someone and even when I spoke the word I thought was…. FREEDOM! You know, I’m not a part of the battle anymore and I hope both sides do excellent with what they have and from deep inside I felt chains fall off my chest.

See, I needed to move! I needed to break free. For “ME” It was not about abandoning, it was not about running, it was about finding something I’d lost!

Nov. 13th, 2003 Numbness evoked my being.

Staying where I was, this day would have never come. A day to look back and be thankful and a day to be able to express my love and gratitude.

I just told a friend! Things are going to be different now: Passion/Emotion/Depth/Feeling/Expression!

There’s a depth to my soul that died that day. I used to see so much in small things and that went away. I used to look at things in a manner so deep, so revealing and I needed to get me back!

I needed to be removed from my friends of 25 years. I needed to be separeted from my daughter and best friend. I needed to be put in a place where no one knew me and in a sense lost, except to my own self
and I needed to find myself again.

In the past year, i’ve made a ton of mistakes. In everything there is a spiritual and a natural course and it’s a choice to know which way you should go. You don’t need to pray about it, you just need to know what to do. You need to know who you are, and there is nothing wrong with natural choices. It depends on where you are, who you are. God will meet you, where ever you go, if you look for him.

We need to be so aware of what is going on around us and not separating ourselves to the point of missing someone that really needs our attention.

Casting someone off because they don’t conform to what we believe, dress the way we dress or act the way we feel they should act.

We need to take a good look around us and stop being the center of attention and see who needs our attention!

This video is a great example!

This is the same video that floored me..and brought me back to where I need to be!

The title to this post is from another video by Joe Nichols (you can look it up) The Impossible.

The man I lost in 2003 took me on 3 tours to Israel. I remember joking… “this plane will never go down, he’s on it” Imagine my feelings on the day he died! I’ve not been back to Israel, but it’s about time to take that tour again!

So for me, Somethng I was never able to do!

Thank you Rev. Stanley W. Scott for everything you did for me! I appreciate you and miss you! I can’t tell you how often I’ve said “I wish you were here” You did a great job in raising up the people who are now raising people up!

In all your weaknesses and short comings YOU were an incredible man and in the end, my friend you were more of a hero then anyone I know!

I miss our “real” talks and getting to know you in a way others never did!

Thank you!
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This was his vision....

This was his vision....

This was the last picture of took of him....

This was the last picture I took of him

Okay, Okay, I’m sorry!

Wednesday, March 25th, 2009

I’ve been SO busy, but I hate to be one of those bloggers that apologize but, seriously, I’ve been busy.

So, what have I been doing? Dare you ask?

Well, you know we relocated and today, yes today I unpacked the last box! Now that may not be a big deal to you, but, I’m thrilled. I never wanted to be one of “those people” that after 2 years still had boxes in the basement! So, now that I am off that list, I can get back to life as I know it. Yeah, right!

I’m not a person to wish I would have!

Now, my April, I’ll have you know April is totally booked. I’ve got a session each Saturday and one on Sunday. I’m shooting a single mom’s luncheon this Sunday and I’ll be in Kansas City from Thur. – Sun.

My life rocks! I say it all the time, I’m blessed to be doing what I do!

So a few days ago, was not as shiny as all my days and my daughter sent me a few pics of Ami. Ami is way amazing and awesome. He loves Yo Gabba Gabba (have you seen that show, it’s scary, lol) he now calls it “Waba, Waba). Ami is full of life and really has his little life all tangled up in my heart strings!

If these pictures do not make you smile, there’s not much hope! They sure made my day.

So, here’s to Ami and to you, my fabulous blog readers!

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